For 18 years, the author Euan McColm describes his life as a blur, his feelings and experiences obscured by alcohol. He believed himself unfit for the role of fatherhood, a prospect he deeply desired but felt incapable of fulfilling due to his struggles.
This long period of dependence was punctuated by a singular moment of clarity, which McColm describes as a 'flick-of-a-switch' event. In that instant, he glimpsed a different possibility for his life, one free from the pervasive influence of alcohol. This realization marked a turning point, offering a new perspective on his own potential and his ability to engage with the world and his feelings more directly. This shift in perspective opened the door to a life he previously thought unattainable, including the possibility of becoming a father.