Nicole Kidman recalled experiencing profound loneliness the night she won her 2003 Academy Award for Best Actress for her role in "The Hours." The win, which marked a pinnacle of her professional success, was overshadowed by a deep sense of isolation following her 2001 divorce from Tom Cruise.
"I had the pinnacle of my success, and I went home and was so lonely," Kidman said on a recent episode of Jake Shane's "Therapuss" podcast. "So, yeah, crazy, though, that sort of the confluence of events where you go, ‘I wish…’ I had my mom with me and my dad, but I was like, ‘Where’s my partner, someone that I can share this with?’"
Kidman described the moment as a turning point, realizing she needed to address her personal life while holding the prestigious award. "It was one of the most profound moments where I went, ‘I’ve got to get a life,’ and at the same time, I’m holding this gold statue where you go, ‘This is, this is it. This is the highest sort of prize you can get in our industry.’ And so grateful and yet so lonely."
She expressed a desire for simple companionship at the time. "I’d love to be able to just, you know, be wrapped in somebody’s arms right now. I’d love to be around now, something that feels really, ‘Oh, OK, this is my real life.’ "
Kidman, who was married to Cruise from 1990 to 2001, with whom she adopted two children, Isabella and Connor, later found love again with country singer Keith Urban. They married in 2006 and share two daughters, Sunday and Faith. Kidman also had a prior engagement to musician Lenny Kravitz.
This sentiment echoes earlier reflections from 2024, where Kidman told author Dave Karger for his book "50 Oscar Nights" that she was struggling with personal matters even as her career flourished. "That’s what happens, right?"
Despite her reservations, Kidman attended the Vanity Fair party following the Oscars ceremony. She recalled feeling overwhelmed and