Vicky Pattison, 38, has openly shared her emotional fertility struggles, confessing she feels "lost" due to not yet having a baby. The former Geordie Shore star, who began documenting her egg-freezing process at age 35, spoke tearfully on the BBC's Sort Your Life Out Unpacked podcast about her feelings.
"I didn't think I'd be this age without a baby or a family," Pattison admitted. She explained that while she felt content and proud of her life and career previously, the absence of a child has led to a sense of being adrift. "And all my whole life I felt so content and so happy and so proud of the things I was doing, and now all of a sudden, because I don't have a baby, I feel a bit lost."
Pattison expressed her love for her husband, Ercan, and her belief that he will be a great father. The couple is actively trying for children but aims to avoid undue pressure. The decision to freeze her eggs provided a "security blanket," and she advocates for wider accessibility and affordability of such treatments.
"I look forward to the day where that is a treatment that is available for more women, more affordable, certainly," she stated. She acknowledged that these processes take time, noting that patience is not her strongest virtue.
Motherhood and Career
In a 2025 interview with Women's Health UK, Pattison articulated a "huge question mark over motherhood" and described the pressure to start a family after marriage as "suffocating." She revealed that taking a break from her career, which she has worked hard to build, is a source of fear.
Pattison, who is in a position of financial privilege, highlighted that women are often presented with a narrative of having it all, which she finds not entirely accurate, often requiring compromise. She met Ercan at 31, and they chose to give their relationship space, a decision she found liberating. "I felt really suffocated, on a kind of conveyor belt, and now I feel free," she said.
The couple shares a mutual desire for more time to deliberate on parenthood. Speaking on the Women's Health Just as Well podcast, Pattison shared her mother's supportive view: "If not having children is your trajectory, that's fine." Pattison believes society is increasingly recognizing that fulfillment is not solely dependent on having children. "I've worked to finally get to a place where I'm proud of who I'm becoming, and the thought of taking a break… it scares me," she reiterated.
