Kelly Osbourne has revealed that she relapsed into drinking following the death of her father, Ozzy Osbourne, stating that her grief sent her spiraling back into addiction. Osbourne, who had been sober for over four years, described reaching "ground zero" in the months after the Black Sabbath frontman died last year at age 76.
"I was a shell of myself. I couldn't speak. I couldn't eat. I couldn't do anything. I was just empty," Osbourne said on Paul C Brunson's We Need To Talk podcast. "Broken in every way a human being could possibly be broken and completely unable to even take care of myself. I was at ground zero. I started drinking again. I lost my mind. I couldn't handle it."
Osbourne, who has battled drug and alcohol addiction since her teenage years, stated that she has since regained her sobriety. "I can honestly say today I'm eight months sober," she said. "I have the most incredible people around me. I closed my circle because I lost a lot of friends because people don't like sadness and they expected me to be over it."
She added, "I will never be over it. I will never ever be over it."
Osbourne, who has a three-year-old son, Sidney, with musician Sid Wilson, has been open about past periods of addiction and recovery. In 2021, she disclosed a relapse after nearly four years of sobriety, explaining at the time that a single glass of champagne had escalated into heavier drinking before she managed to get back on track.
Osbourne noted that for her, drinking and drugs were never about partying but about escaping difficult emotions. She said that this pain has followed her since she gained fame as a teenager on her family's reality show, "The Osbournes," contributing to feelings of insecurity and self-doubt.
Osbourne recently returned to the UK, where she spent much of her childhood, to focus on herself. She acknowledged that this decision has caused some friction within her family, stating that while it has not created a rift with her brother Jack, other family members are "a little bit upset" by her choice to live separately and rediscover herself. "I get it because I don't want to miss out on anything that my nieces are doing. But I also - I'm a mother and I have my own responsibilities and my own life to live and I'm taking this time to be a bit selfish."
She described the loss of her father as fundamentally altering her identity. "The girl that I was before my father passed is dead," Osbourne said. "That girl will never come back. I had to figure out everything from ground zero to now. I will never be the same again. I lost not just my father but my best friend, my main protector, my biggest cheerleader, my hero."
Osbourne reflected that the combination of becoming a mother, losing her father, and struggling with her mental health has prompted a reassessment of her life, which had previously been centered on her family. "Since having my baby, losing my father and my mind, I'm finally back in a place where I'm like, okay, I'm ready to be the me that I truly am," she said. "I do not think I am ugly. I do not think I am fat. I do not think I am worthless. I know my value. I think it's now my time to shine."
She concluded that she no longer wishes to adhere to a family "pecking order" and wants to prioritize her own desires. "I don't want that anymore. I just want to do what I want to do."