Holly Hagan has shared a video of a conversation with her three-year-old son, Alpha-Jax, about his late aunt, Darci. Darci Rose Gibson, Hagan's sister, died at the age of 19 in October after an accidental overdose of crystal MDMA led to multi-organ failure.
In the video, Hagan and her husband, Jacob Blyth, explain to Alpha-Jax that his Aunty Darci is in heaven but can still be spoken to. "Aunty Darci is in heaven but you can still talk to her. She's still listening," Hagan tells her son. She added that when he wears Minions, it reminds him of his aunt, and she "gives you a big smile."
Hagan, who also has a two-month-old daughter named Madison-Darci, named in honor of her sister, stated that she wants her son to remember his aunt. "We always buy him little minions things when we see them so it reminds him of her we’ll never let him forget her," she wrote.
Following the video's release, Hagan addressed criticism regarding her Brazilian Butt Lift (BBL) surgery. She stated that she would not consider reversing the procedure due to its inherent risks, especially after experiencing the loss of her sister. Hagan, who underwent three BBL surgeries a decade ago, described the procedure as her "biggest mistake."
"I have [considered removing] but I don’t really fancy risking my life again when I have two children to look after and my sister dying last year... I’d rather look a little ‘abnormal’ for awhile whilst I lose the weight naturally over time so I don’t leave my parents without another child and my children without a mother," she explained on social media.
Hagan, who has been documenting her postpartum fitness journey, revealed that she has faced significant backlash and demands to have her BBL reversed. "I get SO many comments saying WHY would you not just get your bum removed. And it’s like do you understand what you’re asking me as a mother of two children.. To go under the knife for a super dangerous surgery yet again for vanity and for the trolls to stop!," she wrote.
She elaborated on the dangers, noting that while the surgery was risky when she first had it done at 23, she was not fully aware of the extent of the danger. "Yes it was more dangerous as it’s putting fat in, I wasn’t aware at the time how dangerous but I don’t know if I’d of cared back then," she stated. "I was an insecure 23 year old who had money for the first time who was trolled heavily for the way I looked. I thought it would finally give me the body of my dreams and unfortunately it didn’t and I’m left dealing with the consequences 10 years on."
Hagan expressed frustration with the constant pressure and criticism, particularly concerning weight fluctuations that affect the appearance of her BBL. "My bum will reduce in time with weight loss but people refuse to give me time!! Its funny because if I went for a bbl reduction and died it would be 'why couldn’t she just leave herself alone' 'how selfish of her to go under the knife yet again with two kids' I CAN NOT WIN!!," she said.
She hopes that her experience will serve as a cautionary tale for others considering the procedure. "If there’s one positive that comes from this I hope it’s that girls think twice about getting a bbl. It’s genuinely the worst mistake of my life that I’m still paying for 10 years later."